How can anyone be so crewl - this is rape

On top of the slew of unbelievable things that prick has done the last two weeks this was not the worst but it hurts the worst
I feel so filthy and dirty. I want to soak in a tub of bleach and scrub my body clean with a wire brush, but I would never get clean enough. That slimebag came and finally after 4 months got his stuff and I confronted him about the legal papers I had found and read and how those papers proved everything was a lie from day 1, he married me to get his daughter, which was what the judge said when we went to court and he just said that judge just had a problem with him, but when I confronted him with the proof he said "yeah, so what" which means among other things everytime he touched me, everytime I thought he was making love to me he was just f**king me. I feel like a whore. I feel violated and raped.
I am at a freinds -she was there- I am here so I don't scrub myself till I bleed.
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